Hi my name is Lolly Bee,
I’m here at the Ancestral Knowledge retreat. I also came here 3 years ago- to this retreat. I knew I wanted to come back because I was in a stuck place in my life, I couldn’t quite figure out what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go…I was carrying around some sorrow, heaviness and trauma, which was blocking my ability to move forward in my life. So I knew I needed a reset, like when you restart your computer, I just needed to restart myself (laughs). And I can definitely tell you that today, thursday of this week-long retreat: I am reborn.
It’s been one of the most challenging weeks. To get to this side of the journey I’m very grateful because it’s been very difficult, it’s been uncomfortable, it’s required a lot of willingness to go into myself. To go into the exact places that I learned to avoid. To look at the different unhealthy coping mechanisms that I had developed inside of myself…and this experience, this medicine just invites you, it turns the light on…let’s see what’s really here, what’s going on.
I feel that I got everything that I was praying for. I had certain intentions, certain topics and themes that I wanted to work on, certain blockages I wanted to release, patterns I wanted to heal. And 4 nights of medicine, the Inipi (Sweatlodge) & the container…I am here now.
I really can tell you that there is nothing like it…there’s nothing….I’m a therapist by training, I’ve gone to therapy, I’ve done many different trainings and healings…and there is no comparison.
If you are ready and willing to do the work. You can’t come here and expect it’s going to be sunshine and rainbows.
The true work of healing requires a lot of humbling yourself, surrendering, sitting with discomfort, sitting with painful emotions, sad emotions…knowing that by going into the pain for a short amount of time that it stops affecting your life in many other ways throughout the years. So, it’s not for the faint of heart, but if you really feel that you are not where you could be, like you’re not living to your potential, this medicine, these teachings will jump start you, just catapult you ahead in your journey.
It’s such a beautiful container, wonderful people, amazing land, and I just am so grateful that I made this choice to come here.